supposed to go help a friend today. Not really feeling it. Its going to be hot and humid today. Its relatively early and I’m already sweating while I sit and type this. Not motivated after the weekend. Really just want to work on odd-jobs around the house, but could use the money. I think I’ll get up early in the morning tomorrow and work til noon.
I need to find a real job, or win the lottery. The finances, or lack of, is starting to get to me. Its been to long!
Either way, for the most part, I would like to move. It doesn’t have to be to far away. Our parents are getting older and I think that we should be close enough to them to help as they need it. And I know that ‘running away’ is not the answer, but I’m just tired of this place. Need a fresh start, a new beginning. Would like to leave most of the ‘stresses’ behind.
There would be a few people that I would miss. But a lot more I would gladly leave behind. Just tired of dealing with the ex and everthing that comes with that. Tired of the kid situation. (the eldest now wants a tattoo from what I hear. Not a little discreet tattoo, no a big tattoo that covers the shoulder).
Just walk away and leave it all behind. To start over and build fresh, to live again. Like the phoenix and rise again from the ashes to live anew.